If I had a statement directed at the title of this blog, it would simply be "bull crap!!!!" We'll, today that is. You see, I believe I was a victim of bullying. I had a sweet and very dear friend to me text me last week asking for prayers because she was being verbally bullied at work. That BLEW my mind! We are grown adults... Who does that any more?? Apparently, I was to be taught a lesson. Today I get to work, and a co-worker, who I thought I was somewhat friends with, decided to break me down in the worst way possible. He told me that every single person in the whole building did not like me, nor did they like working with me. He called me a "porcupine" (still not sure why), but above else, he said I was "TOO sensitive". Let me take you back to my job description. The title I have is...(ready for this???)....Commission Sales person. "Too sensitive.... Commission sales". I'm no dummy, they don't mix. Duh. The person telling me this? The LEAD sales person of the company.
Fast forward, I'll save you of the depressing - cant- answer- the - phone- or-talk-because-I-might-burst-into-tears-details. On my way home, my step daughter says something that is just so hilarious to me. Not even really funny, but after the hell I had been through today, it lifted my spirits. It just for a second gave me a glimpse into the innocent lives and minds if children. So free, simple, naive, momentary. And then my heart broke, thinking of how they have to deal with this same heavy-heartless, painful feeling that bullying brings.
How do people do that? What makes them feel so numb when they see the tears roll down your face because of the words they said? What could make a person so motivated to do that to the point of feeling no remorse? I'm 26, and I got bullied. What age does it end?
The Gaither Kids!
Friday, July 12, 2013
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Time is flying
So to say it's been a while is quite the understatement. I definitely misjudged how much time I was losing when I decided to work full time. It's a great opportunity for my family, but MAN! Do I miss my babies!!
In the next month, my babies will all be a year older. Maddox turns two on Monday, London turns one at the end of the month, and Brooklyn turns three beginning of March.
I think every mommy feels a little pit in the bottom of their stomach when the birthdays come around every year. I'm happy that we are moving on to more MOBILE activities and that we have a whole new world of adventures to embark on. But, I'm also sad that they are growing up so fast!
So here is a few of my favorite moments/realizations over the last year for each of mynot so little babies!
London: Man does she know how to stick up for herself! She is one fiesty little lady! She has started mimicking words, her latest being "Thank you!" She is a thumb sucker, one thing I know I'll hate down the road, but it's so stinking cute when she grabs her blankie and sticks that thumb in her mouth... it also means it's cuddle time! She is my little cuddle budy, and I am so glad since I'm thinking she will always be the baby of the family!
Maddox: He's gotta be the chillest kid ever, but so funny! He says only a few words clearly. One of them is "POOP!" He HATES to have a dirty diaper, so he walks around following you saying, "poop, poop, poop" till you change him. And if you don't change him fast enough... he'll stick his hand in his pants! He's many-a-times painted with the nasty brown all over his crib and blankets. YUCK! He also has learned lately that when he says "Mommy, mom, mom, mommy" in the middle of the night, he gets a nice warm spot smack dab in between mommy and daddy in the big bed. I know I shouldn't cave, but since he's mostly a daddy's boy and always wants daddy, those moments just melt me. He is such a good kid, I'm truly a lucky mom. He never throws fits, and he's pretty chill.
Brooklyn: Man, where do I start? This girl just KILLS me! I know it's totally the "first mommy" moments, but where does she come up with this stuff? I asked her a few weeks ago where my heart was, and she said it's on my arm... you want it? Her latest things have been counting to ten on her own. She's finally getting the concept of boy vs girl, and he and her and hers and "hims". She has been such a momma's girl lately, it's really nice. We have fun putting make up on, doing her hair all cute, dancing, all the cute little girl things. My baby has grown up. It's just crazy!
I was sitting in the rocking chair cuddling Maddox back to sleep, and it just hit me how important I truly am to him and my two girls, but especially him. He has been such a momma's boy over the last almost two years that it's nice he has been wanting me the last few months. It really just hit me on how much of an influence I have in teaching him, nurturing him, and helping to mold him in to the man who respects women and the man who will lead his own family. I never really thought about this big, grown up parenting role like that. It brings me to tears to think that one more year of their little lives has passed, but it makes me so excited that I hopefully get to spend the rest of my life with them, God willing.
I'm a lucky mom. I'm lucky that I get to lead these kids in their younger years. I'm lucky that I get to hold, kiss, cuddle, and love on these little children. They hold my heart, and for that, I am so lucky.
In the next month, my babies will all be a year older. Maddox turns two on Monday, London turns one at the end of the month, and Brooklyn turns three beginning of March.
I think every mommy feels a little pit in the bottom of their stomach when the birthdays come around every year. I'm happy that we are moving on to more MOBILE activities and that we have a whole new world of adventures to embark on. But, I'm also sad that they are growing up so fast!
So here is a few of my favorite moments/realizations over the last year for each of my
London: Man does she know how to stick up for herself! She is one fiesty little lady! She has started mimicking words, her latest being "Thank you!" She is a thumb sucker, one thing I know I'll hate down the road, but it's so stinking cute when she grabs her blankie and sticks that thumb in her mouth... it also means it's cuddle time! She is my little cuddle budy, and I am so glad since I'm thinking she will always be the baby of the family!
Maddox: He's gotta be the chillest kid ever, but so funny! He says only a few words clearly. One of them is "POOP!" He HATES to have a dirty diaper, so he walks around following you saying, "poop, poop, poop" till you change him. And if you don't change him fast enough... he'll stick his hand in his pants! He's many-a-times painted with the nasty brown all over his crib and blankets. YUCK! He also has learned lately that when he says "Mommy, mom, mom, mommy" in the middle of the night, he gets a nice warm spot smack dab in between mommy and daddy in the big bed. I know I shouldn't cave, but since he's mostly a daddy's boy and always wants daddy, those moments just melt me. He is such a good kid, I'm truly a lucky mom. He never throws fits, and he's pretty chill.
Brooklyn: Man, where do I start? This girl just KILLS me! I know it's totally the "first mommy" moments, but where does she come up with this stuff? I asked her a few weeks ago where my heart was, and she said it's on my arm... you want it? Her latest things have been counting to ten on her own. She's finally getting the concept of boy vs girl, and he and her and hers and "hims". She has been such a momma's girl lately, it's really nice. We have fun putting make up on, doing her hair all cute, dancing, all the cute little girl things. My baby has grown up. It's just crazy!
I was sitting in the rocking chair cuddling Maddox back to sleep, and it just hit me how important I truly am to him and my two girls, but especially him. He has been such a momma's boy over the last almost two years that it's nice he has been wanting me the last few months. It really just hit me on how much of an influence I have in teaching him, nurturing him, and helping to mold him in to the man who respects women and the man who will lead his own family. I never really thought about this big, grown up parenting role like that. It brings me to tears to think that one more year of their little lives has passed, but it makes me so excited that I hopefully get to spend the rest of my life with them, God willing.
I'm a lucky mom. I'm lucky that I get to lead these kids in their younger years. I'm lucky that I get to hold, kiss, cuddle, and love on these little children. They hold my heart, and for that, I am so lucky.
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
New Year, New Goals
Sorry I have been MIA lately... life has been crazy- as I'm sure everyone's has been. I was the smart one who decided to start working full time just before the holidays. This working full time thing is wack! Yes, I just said wack. I don't know how y'all do it. I think I am learning how to deal with a lot less control, and learning how to roll with the punches more. I am now DEFINITELY not that PINTEREST perfect (ahem... picture perfect...sorry). My hubby has stepped up a lot, we would be eating cereal with water if it wasn't for him.
I' m shocked at how many hits my blog about my sister has received. It's a good shock. If you haven't read it yet, you can see it here..http://growinggaithers.blogspot.com/2012/12/mental-health-epidemic-please-share-its.html Thank you for viewing and sharing. Since I wrote this, things have gotten worse. She went to court for a charge against her one of the times my mom was forced to call the cops on her. We were hoping they would court order treatment for her, but that wasn't the case. She has also, since my last post, stolen my mom's car for a joy ride and tried "over dosing" on Adderall. She is 13. I love my sister a ton, but I'm still scared for her safety, especially after she bragged about her driving capabilities. But, that's NOT the direction I wanted to take this blog, so on to more positive things. Thank you for the support in this situation, though!
So, hello 2013! I'm surprisingly excited for a new year- most of the time I think it's just another day, but this year I am amped! I had a nice relaxing vacation with the family, bringing in the New Year in the way I hope it remains - simplified. I'm hoping this year I will be more organized, less chaos, less mess and less running around like a chicken with its head cut off. I'm purging of our old things, saving up for a brand new bedroom set, and also a mini van to haul my kiddos around. This year, my oldest will be going in to preschool, we will be pacifier and formula free for the first time in 3 years. I'm hoping to start MAKING time to redo furniture around my house, and enjoying my hobby. It's the first year that I feel like I have direction.
What are some things you hope to accomplish this year? What things do you know are going to change for the better? I'd love to hear!!
I' m shocked at how many hits my blog about my sister has received. It's a good shock. If you haven't read it yet, you can see it here..http://growinggaithers.blogspot.com/2012/12/mental-health-epidemic-please-share-its.html Thank you for viewing and sharing. Since I wrote this, things have gotten worse. She went to court for a charge against her one of the times my mom was forced to call the cops on her. We were hoping they would court order treatment for her, but that wasn't the case. She has also, since my last post, stolen my mom's car for a joy ride and tried "over dosing" on Adderall. She is 13. I love my sister a ton, but I'm still scared for her safety, especially after she bragged about her driving capabilities. But, that's NOT the direction I wanted to take this blog, so on to more positive things. Thank you for the support in this situation, though!
So, hello 2013! I'm surprisingly excited for a new year- most of the time I think it's just another day, but this year I am amped! I had a nice relaxing vacation with the family, bringing in the New Year in the way I hope it remains - simplified. I'm hoping this year I will be more organized, less chaos, less mess and less running around like a chicken with its head cut off. I'm purging of our old things, saving up for a brand new bedroom set, and also a mini van to haul my kiddos around. This year, my oldest will be going in to preschool, we will be pacifier and formula free for the first time in 3 years. I'm hoping to start MAKING time to redo furniture around my house, and enjoying my hobby. It's the first year that I feel like I have direction.
What are some things you hope to accomplish this year? What things do you know are going to change for the better? I'd love to hear!!
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